I'm So Naked Right Now....

Went to see Night At The Museum: Battle Of The Smithsonian today. Really good movie, maybe even better than the first one. I love Hank Azaria, he's amazing. I just wish he hadn't cheated on Helen Hunt:-\

It was very funny in my humble opinion. It's rare these days for a sequel to equal (that rhymes!) it's predecessor, let alone exceed it. The previews however did not promise a good movie line-up for the summer. Hopefully that's because it was a family movie.

I also saw Terminator: Salvation this weekend. I liked that as well. There were a few unanswered questions, but I was entertained.

You: That's great Gen, but when are you going to explain your lack of clothing?

Me: Ah yes! My nakedity....Well, after leaving the theater, I realized that I did not have my phone with me. I know I had it with me at the theater, yet it was not in my possession. It is officially missing. When I first called, it rang, now when I call it goes straight to voicemail. I'm guessing someone found it, but who knows. You'd think they would pick up or something, if they were any kind of decent. Yes, it's a Blackberry, but it's only a Pearl and it's rather beat up, why would you keep it?!?! And of course I just got internet for it on Friday.....and of course T-Mobile is closed to day because it's a hoiday so I can't even suspend my service. What are the odds of that happening? *sigh*

I have been terrible with my blogging. I knew I would drop the ball, but I'm hoping to pick it back up again. I think my next blog will be a tribute to some original bloggers....Maybe that will keep me motivated.

La'az!

Don't Get On The Boat, You'll End Up In The Middle Of The Ocean...

Had to be at work at 5 AM this morning! Blech. I had to make my alarm one of the obnoxious sounds on my phone or I would simply ignore it.

I peeled my eyes open reluctantly at 4:00. What a horrible hour to have to get out of bed! I don't think I'll ever really get used to it. All though I think I've had to get up at just about every hour possible between my job and doing background work.

Oh, Backtrack: Last night I got a text from the guy I met at the party, we were supposed to go see a movie on Tuesday, but he never called. I didn't text him or anything, I just figured whatever and was content to stay at home and chill. Anyway, I get a text at 10, saying that he his phone had broken and he just got a new one. Hmmmm. I mean I have no real reason not to believe him, and that kind of thing does happen. Plus, he was the one who asked me, so I don't think he would just be trying to get out of it. It just seems a little weird to me, but I'm not the pouty-pissed-off type of chick, so I don't really care. However, I'm trying to me the new me when it comes to dating, relationships and guys. So, in lieu of the Old Me, I decided to not text him back right away, but to wait until the next morning.

Flashforward To Present:

Even though it was such a beastly hour, I had to be prepared for my whole day. I was gonna go to the beach after work since I got off at 11, but I was also going to the gym. One thing I hate about living 20 minutes away from the area that I conduct most of my life in is that I have to think through my whole day before I leave my house because I hate driving and wasting the gas. Once I'm on the westside, I'm there till I'm ready to rest my bones! So I put on my swimsuit, one of my new tops, and the shorts I wore as a Ghostbuster. It was cute. The top is Babydoll style though, which falls just below my thighs, and the shorts are short, so it looks like I'm not wearing anything underneath. No.....I'm not a slut.

Work was slow, not too much going on. I got to see my friend DL (not real name, as none of the guys' names in here are). I hadn't seen him in a while, so it was nice to see him again. We always seem to miss each other at work.

I had ordered a pepperoni pizza online at CPK. So I headed over to grab my lunch. I had to stop at the store for sunscreen and a drink. I was standing at the sunscreen shelves trying to decide which of the million choices was best, when an older gentleman said while he walked in my direction "Cute. Very cute." I turned to see who was talking and he smiled at me. Now, when I say older, I mean could be a friend of my dad's. I smiled politely and laughed awkwardly. Then as he passed he said "You should come on our boat!" I didn't really know what to say to that...so again, awkward laugh. Oh, yeah let me just go hop on your boat with you Mr. Strangeman! And why don't we just leave my car here, and I'll ride with you while we're at it! Then I can finally cross rape & abduction off of my wishlist!" Let me clarify, this is in the Marina, so there are boats around, so it wasn't a horrifically random invitation, but still! So I just awkwardly laughed until he went away. I immediately text Dawn, Ingrid and Allie. Dawn, Ingrid and I had been talking about how you never go on a boat with a guy cuz you could end up trapped in the middle of the ocean! We were joking, but here I was with an actual proposal!

He passed by again to go checkout, and again threw an invitation my way for this "Boat Party". Said I would be a "welcome guest". Yeah I'm sure. He didn't even say, "Oh, I have a son who would love to meet you!", no it was obvious I would be his guest. I'm sorry but if you're gonna be that old trying to holler at me, you better look like one of these guys:


And he did not.

Cue Awkward Laugh. Don't look him in the eye. Crisis Averted.

So I finally reached my destination. I laid out my towel, put in my Zune, and read a magazine. It was really great! I just sat by myself for a while. After awhile I decided I just head out to the gym. So I started walking back to my car.

These two guys walked by as I was sitting in my car, getting ready to go. They were talking to me, and I joked with them as they walked. Then one of them said "Bye' as he kept looking back at me me. I said bye. Then I continued to get the sand off of my feet. I could see the two of them loitering in the area, looking like they had something to do, but the one guy kept looking back at me. I had sunglasses on, so I don't think he saw me see him. Anyway, they eventually came back over and introduced themselves to me. They were working on a music video they were filming on the beach (Truth! I had already scene the trailers and stuff, plus they had walkie-talkies! Hehe.), then the friend said he had to go to the restroom and left the other guy there. We talked for a bit, he seemed cool. He also had sunglasses on, but he seemed cute from what I saw. We're both from the same area. He could be fun to hang out with. He got my number, so we'll see where that goes!

Tomorrow is going to be even more hectic! I probably won't get home til late! Blah.
La'az!!
(FYI: That's "Laterz", but with the British absence of the "t" sound)

Star Trek, Wolverine, Shopping And A BBQ!!

Another Good Weekend Notch on my belt!

I decided to treat myself this week. I haven't been spending money, even when I got my tax refund, go me! So I went to the galleria and bought a few things. I actually bought six pairs of shoes!! I have NEVER bought that many shoes at once in my entire life! It was quite exciting. I bought some jewelry and tops too.

I really spoiled myself. I got a manicure a pedicure and got my hair did! I think I'm "spent", at least for a while.

After I got my hair done on Friday, we went to go see Wolverine. I liked it!! My brothers were complaining that it strayed from the comics. Yes it did, but it was still entertaining. The one thing that bugged me was that Gambit was making cards float, like mind control or something. But Gambit can't do that in the comics. So that was annoying, but the rest was very entertaining.

Saturday was my boss' birthday party. It was at The Parlor in Santa Monica, and it was 80s themed. I wasn't sure how I was going to pull a costume together, but I did it! I decided I wanted to go as a Ghostbuster. I found a tan shirt at Salvation Army and some cute tan shorts at JC Penney's that I can wear this summer. I already had gloves. Then, it was crazy, I was going to try to find some black fabric to make arm bands, and I was looking on my bed for something, when I foud and arm sleeve my mom had made YEARS ago when I was minnie mouse. It was made out of black leggings. We cut it into arm bands. It was so random that it was on my bed. I mean I literally hadn't seen this thing since I was like 9, and it just randomly shows up when I need it. I was Spengler, glasses and all:

The party itself was a blast. I played beer pong agaisnt a guy that looked kind of like Matthew McCounaghey (sp?). My partner I were awesome. Unfortunately, they had to put the beer pong table away before we claim ultimate victory. We had like 8 cups left while the guys had about 5, so I called a win on our side. Of course they still said they were undefeated.

The bartender was VERY good looking. I really wanted to talk to him more, but he was so good-looking I just kind of froze up at the thought of talking to him. Now had I not been interested. Oh I would have been witty all get out! *sigh*

I was people-watching, something I enjoy doing at parties. They had rented out the upstairs section but random people were still coming up. It was awesome seeing people's faces when they saw all the 80s madness and was wondering what was going on. I met another gal named Catherine. Dawn had introduced me to her. We were having a good time. A few guys came up to us talked but we had our sights set on the bartender. I decided to go sit at the bar where I would be more likely to talk to him, seeing as how he wouldn't be able to come up to me;-)

While I was sitting there, a group of guys came by me. They commented on my costume, and then one of them started to talk to me. He was telling me about his job and how he has to commute from OC to downtown LA. I said I used to work at Disneyland so I know what that's like. Then he said he used to work at Disneyland! We found out we were there at the same time, both in foods. Small world! He was pretty cute and nice, so I continued to chat with him. His friends had left him, so he had to go find them. But he got my number first. I can tell I wouldn't really get a long with his friends, but he seems cool.

The rest of the party was fun, I hung out with Catherine most of the time. We're gonna try to hang out, we got along really well. I think we could be good friends!

Yesterday, my brother invited me to a screening of Star Trek. Before the movie, we went to his friend's BBQ. They had just moved into a new place and invited a bunch of people over. They were really cool. I'm usually weary of meeting new girls, but they were fun! I wanna hang out with them again. It's always a little awkward hanging out with my bro and his girl friends cuz there's a little flirting, and I'm never sure where I should look, haha!

Then his other friend who was going with us to the screening met us there. As it turned out, she went to college with Jamie, one of the girls who lived there! They did the girl scream when they saw each other, it was pretty funny and random. They hadn't seen each other since graduation.

After a while we headed off to Paramount Studios for the screening. I was actually excited to see the movie. Even though I'm not a bonified Trekkie, it looked like it would be good. It was soooo good! I want to see it again. My mom and dad are totally into Star Trek. They used to watch all the series. I want to go see it with them, and see if they like it. My brother's friend was there, whom I happen to think is extremely good-looking (Lord help me if he ever read this blog!). Yeah, unfortunately, I was looking slightly marmish because my brother told me to dress "business casual". While his friend's date was in a sexy top and pencil skirt. I didn't even try to compete. I just chalked it up as a loss. My second loss when it comes to that guy! Oh well...

It was a good weekend! I had fun, met new people, and got be a ghostbuster, who can complain about that?!

Lazy Days

So, I promised myself I would try to blog everyday, even if nothing "interesting" happened. Let's see, what I can get out of today.

I woke up early to get stuff started for Youth Group with the fundraiser I'm heading. Deadlines sure sneak up on you, don't they? I always say I'll do stuff then it comes up so fast and I feel like I had no time to prepare! This was my first day off in 13 days!! I'm not one of those people who just says "I've been busy", but I haven't. When I say I've been busy, I really have. My days seem to go by so quickly. between having to be at work and trying to fit the gym in, I feel like those are the only two places I've been in the last two weeks.

So, I read this book called You Lost Him At Hello. It's a good book. This woman has applied sales techniques to dating. It sounds weird, but it seems like it would work, in theory. I haven't had a chance to really put any of her techniques to the test. However, part of what she stresses is to not always be available. She also says, women, you have to play games. It sucks, but you have to play the games guys make us play. Even though they swear they don't like games, it's a lie, because there are rules you have to follow. I know this is true because I didn't like playing games either, and I've been doing things my way, and I've been single my whole life. So I've decided to buckle down and do what these books suggest, rather than my own natural desires.

I wanted to text TR yesterday to say bye and whatever, you know, just any reason to start a conversation. But I told myself not to. I ate my fingers to keep from typing on my phone. Somehow I distracted myself and got through yesterday without saying anything. Today I wanted to just forget what the book said and send him a text. But then I told myself again, "No, you've always done it your way, and it's gotten you nothing. Try something different!", so I didn't.

My problem is, I feel like any little thing could stop a guy from being interested in me. Only the guys I'm interested in though. Guys I have absolutely no interest in whatsoever won't leave me alone no matter what. What is up with that? Why are the guys I'm into not into me?

ANYway, so I went to the gym, to continue my workout routine and to keep my hands occupied. When I get there, I feel my phone vibrate. It was TR! He actually text me first! I couldn't believe I did it. I waited, and he text me first. I kind of like this feeling.

I like being pursued. I prefer to be pursued. But I'm so used to having to be the pursuer it's hard for me to think anyone would ever want to pursue me. A guy making an effort into seeing me or going out of his way to talk to me seem like a fairytale, or something that only happens in movies. It's very hard for me to imagine a guy liking me enough to work to get and/or keep me. It's very sad, but I'm trying not to think that way.

Well that's another glimpse into my love life and why it is the way it is now. More shall reveal itself in due time I'm sure. La'az!

Livin' For The Weekend

This weekend turned out to be very interesting! A great turn around from Thursday indeed.

FUNKY FRIDAY

Friday morning I went to the gym and did my workout, just in time to meet my friend Dawn at the theater. We were going to see 17 Again. Turned out the movie time was different from what she had found, and I had to be at work at 3:00. We found it playing at another theater not too far at 12:30, so we headed over.

We got good seats in the middle, just where I like them! Let me tell you, Pacific in downtown Culver City is my FAVORITE theater. The seats are comfortable and the stadium seating is perfect, you don't have to worry about people's big heads or hairdos getting in your way! Anyway there was Dawn and I, two grown men (who weren't together, they were sitting far from one another, which was interesting), and a couple I think.

I'm so glad there weren't a lot of people, because Dawn and I were drooling over Zac Efron the entire time! I thought he was hot in Hairspray, but didn't think much of him, but now, I've become one of those tween girls screaming about him! I'm really much too old for this, but he's so GORGEOUS, it's ridiculous. Since Hayden Christensen went and got married, I think I've found his replacement....Don't even get me started on why he's so attractive. And what makes him hot in this movie is that he's playing a grown man. So he's not some dumb high school kid. His is a man, and he did an excellent job! His mannerisms and facial expressions were priceless. I really think he could be another great actor of our time if he picks the right roles.


Swingin' Saturday

Had to work at 5:oo am on Saturday, but it wasn't too bad cuz I was working with Dawn again, and we were still on our Zac Efron high. We were positively giddy at the thought of the boy. But it was fun being silly with someone else about a celebrity crush.

I was supposed to hang out with my brother and our friends because our friend Avery has never seen Final Destination and we were going to watch the trilogy. But he had a family emergency, so we ended up not going. I checked my e-mail when I got home and I got an e-mail from a guy I met at Brennan's back in September. We'll call him TR. I hadn't heard from him a in while. He's from out of state, but he was in LA for work, and he asked for my number. My brother and I were trying to figure out what to do for the night, but I was so tired I was falling asleep. Then I got a text from TR asking me to come out. I wanted to but I was super tired, and I did not fee like driving, but my brother was feeling like going out, so I figured if he was driving I would go. We ended up meeting TR and his friends in Venice. It was cool. We got there kind of late so we weren't there for long. It was cool though. I always like hanging out with my brother.

When I saw TR, I gave him a hug and he said "You look great!", this was cool because guys always say that in movies when they see the girl after a while, and I always thought: Guys never say that in real life! So I was really flattered. It doesn't take much for me, lol. I'll have to recap my love life /dating experiences one of these days so you'll understand my awkwardness when it comes to the opposite sex.

Slowdown Sunday

Had to work again on Sunday. It wasn't a long shift, and my mom and brothers picked me up to go to the Festival of Books at UCLA. It was crowded!! We go every year, and it's getting crazier!! My mom and I found some good info.

We were walking around when I saw a guy that looked familiar. He looked like a guy I dated last year. We will call him AC. So I text him and asked him if he was at the Festival, and he said yes. We ended up finding each other. I haven't seen him in about a year, and we just stopped talking to each other. There was no break-up or anything wrong, we just lost communication. Gave him a hug and he said "You look great!", haha!! This was awesome. I was so glad I decided to wash my hair on Friday, and look semi cute even though we were just going to the festival. So random, I see two guys I haven't seen in a while, and they both tell me I look great which I thought was a movie myth, and urban legend.

After the festival, my mom and brothers and I decided to go see Race To Witch Mountain. It sucked. The writing was terrible, it was cliche and just a BAD movie. I am not picky about my movies, so if I say it's bad, it's BAD.

We ended up seeing another homeschool mom we knew when I was in high school. She was bragging to my mom about being a grandmother, and my mom was saying she was jealous. I hate these conversations because then I'm looked at like "Why don't you have any kids yet?!", I'm like mom, would you like me to just run out and get pregnant? Cuz I can probably do that. I was just hoping to actually be in love and have a husband before I have children. If you would like to go out in LA and find me a decent guy, go for it, and good luck! I always hate seeing people that I knew from high school. I mean I live at home and I'm trying to be an actress. My life is not really noteworthy as of yet. SO then I have to say oh, I'm working on an acting career or oh I'm an online moderator. Neither of which are very impressive. But I'm making those sacrifices for my dream career. But that's for another blog another time!

Manic Monday

Went to work. Tried to do homework at Coffee Bean afterwards, but it was too cold outside, and all the tables inside were taken. I get a text from TR asking me if I can come hang out. I tell him I have to go to the gym then go home and get ready. I invite Dawn, Allison and Chelsea. We all meet in Venice Beach at a bar to watch the Lakers game (GO LAKER S 4- 1, WOOOO!). Then the three of us end up going back to the Ritz-Carlton with TR and his friend. It was good times after that, but I won't go into detail.


Also, this weekend I had checked my Facebook and I got a wall comment from The Guy, another long story, let's just say he's kind of 'The One That Got Away, only it would be The One That Let Me Go. The one whom I've had feelings for, that I can't get rid of, for the last three years. He never initiates any conversation with me, it's always me talking to him. But he actually wrote to me first.

So it was a very interesting weekend as far as my "Love" Life goes. Lol, I didn't meet anyone knew, but I had interactions with a few guys from the past. It was really weird that it all happened in the same weekend.

How was your weekend?

Bad Day, Bad TiVo.Better Tomorrow?

I woke up with a terrible feeling and looked at my cell phone. It was 7:10 AM. I was supposed to be at work at 7:00. FANTASTIC! As I'm staring at my phone, begging it not to be true, my coworker calls and I tell him what happened. I jump out of bed, throw something on and rush out of my house. I'm almost at work when traffic hits. On the street, not even the freeway! So Instead being only 30 minutes late, I end up being an hour late. Crap.

Work wasn't bad, I like working with Allison, so the time went fairly quickly. Then I had to go to Target because in my rush to get out of the house I forgot my gym towel, and I cannot go to the gym without a towel, people sweat there ya know!
I got out of Target in under $30 (a miracle for me, I had to put some serious blinders on. I did almost buy some shoes). Then headed to the gym.

**Side Note** Why do people feel like just because it's a locker room they don't need to have any kind of discretion with their nakedity? I HATE that! I understand we're all women, but honestly, you don't need to stand there talking on your cell phone completely in the buff, I have my own, I don't want to see yours!!**

Finished my workout then came home. Bailey, my puppy, greeted me. She always makes me smile. We found her a little over a year ago. I'll have to post a pic one of these days. I took her out and ran with her for a little bit.

I decided to shower and settle in for some American Idol, I sit I watch, Tuesday's episode missed the last 9 minutes, so I didn't get to see Anoop's performance. I moved on to Wednesday, only to find it only recorded the first 5 minutes!!! FML!!! This is so frustrating, so I have to go to the website to see who was eliminated. Very anti-climactic.

And to top it off, TiVo didn't record Grey's Anatomy either!! WTH!?!? What a crappy day? I would be devastated by this if it weren't for watching episodes online. Thank God for that.

Tomorrow should be better, I'm going to go see 17 Again with a friend.

I'm ready to start over! Goodnight world!!

The Wonderful Thing About Bloggers!

Since I was accepted into 20 Something Bloggers, I've had a chance to explore some blogs tonight, which is something I've wanted to do for a while, but wasn't sure where to start. This was a great foot in the door!

As I sit and read all of these amazing blogs and gaze jealously upon their lovely, unique, and beautiful layouts, I can't help but wonder how to get to that point.

I would love to be able to be so candid in my blogs, so open and interesting. Things happen to me all the time, but I never think about telling anyone. Not really the mentality of a writer, right? Well I have decided to begin to write. Anything and everything that I can. If I can make myself write SOMETHING everyday, the good, the bad, the interesting, the boring, eventually I will be able to write in a way I could be proud of!

I need to exercise my writing muscles! (And we can start by no longer using phrases like "exercise my writing muscles"

Ciao!

New Things

1. I started a workout routine today that is supposed to get me "cut & sparkling" in four weeks!!
2. Had a GREAT Easter with friends & fam, thank you Jesus!
3. Started a dating site last week. It's been okay so far. Definitely the most interactive and fun dating site I've ever been on. And it's free!! Yay!!

Chicken Soup For The Soul: College Chronicles

I just got the e-mail that my story is going to be published in a Chicken Soup book! I'm so excited! I'm a published writer! Yay!

This Is How We Do It

I scheduled myself to have Mon-Wed of this week off from my Moderator job so that I could work background those days. Well I ended up not working on Monday or Tuesday. I had tried to book work for Tuesday, but they said they couldn't use me. So I was destined to laze about at home for the third day in a row. This was not going to work for me. My friend Dan had gotten called and booked on the movie that I got denied for. Since I was doing nothing all day anyway, I decided to try to spec (in BG terms, that means go on set and see if people don't show up and you can take their place). I thought the call time was going to be around 3:00PM so I text Dan at 11:45AM for the details. I called the info line and they said the call time was 1:00PM! I rushed and threw my clothes in a bag (you have to bring your own clothes when you're an extra) and hauled but over to the studio.

When I got there, they said they couldn't let me in because my name wasn't on list. Of course my name wasn't on the list, I wasn't booked. So they told me to call the pass office and see if they could help me. The Pass Office told me to call Central because they need them to send the O.K. So I called Central and they said they don't make passes for Specs. It looked like I was going to have to go home with my tail between my legs.

I had considered calling the casting director at Central and asking for her help, but I didn't want to be an annoying BG person. I mean she had already told me they couldn't use me, and now I had the nerve to just go to set? This could definitely put me on her Bad List.

I was just about to resign to getting in my car and going home, when the guard (an elder gentleman), told me to call and see if maybe they spelled my name wrong. I didn't feel like explaining the whole situation and how they couldn't have spelled it wrong, because it wasn't on the list in the first place. I gave him some short answer and he said "Well don't give up." That really got to me for some reason. I looked at my phone and decided to call the CD at Central. It rang and she picked up almost immediately. I told her what was going on and asked if she had any more spots on the movie. She asked if I was already there and had the appropriate wardrobe, I told her yes. She put me hold. When she came back, she said she could officially book me, but she would give me a pass so that I could at least go see. I thanked her profusely and went to get my pass.

Okay, parking problem: Solved. Now to get actual work. I made it to the stage and went up to the sign-in table. I asked if they were taking Specs. Right away she shook her head and said they weren't. I asked "none at all?", she said she would check, so she asked the AD at the next table over. And she said "Sure, let them hang out and see. If we don't get our numbers we can let them on" (I'm pretty sure I was the only Spec). They told me to get food and relax til they figure out who's signed in.

People kept coming in, and the voucher pile was dwindling along with my hopes of making it on this film. I hung out with Dan, we got burgers, but I couldn't eat because I was too riled up and nervous about whether I was working or not. Eventually they had taken most everybody to set. I gently reminded them that I was still waiting. They said "It's 2:45, sure let them on!", again I was the only spec, but I was just happy they were going to let me work.

The set was awesome, it was a resort scene so everyone was in swimsuits, there's a pool, wet bar and everything. Plus it was warm, which was a plus since girls had to be in two-pieces.

They told us it was going to be a long day, which was fine with me. After we had been working for a long time, we were waiting in holding to go back on set. The ADs stood up and told all the girls to stand in a circle. So we all got up and went over. They told the blonds they could go ahead and sit down.

The ADs walked around the circle picking girls out. Wen they got to me, I smiled, and she told me to step forward. Wen they finished picking, they told everyone else they could back to their seats. Then they told us they were taking us to the Producer to look at us for a possible upgrade. They were looking for a Polynesian, island, exotic type (and they picked me! Go figure, maybe it was the flowers my hair guy put in, thanks Matt!). So they march us all over to set. Then the producer comes out and looks at us. She tells a few girls to step out because they'd already been seen too much. I am completely nervous at this point. I could feel all kinds of butterflies in my stomach.

When she finishes that process, Vince Vaughn comes over to look at us! I ADORE Vince Vaughn so this just sent my pulse skyrocketing. He was really nice, and explained the scene to us. Then they told us we were going to be auditioning for the producer for a line in the movie!! I was so excited. This was the first time anything liek this had ever happened to me. They gave us the script to look over and I practiced and practiced. I could hear other girls practicing too, but I did my best not to pay attention and focus on what I was doing. I prayed: "Lord you got me here, if it's meant to be it will happen. If not, I know you have something else for me. Just help me to do my best."

My turn finally came and I read the dialogue. When I finished I could hear the other girls saying their lines for the producers. I kept thinking "She sounded cuter" or "I should have done it like that".

That's when I had an epiphany. No, I should not have done like the other girls. I did it my way (As Frankie S. would put it) and I should be proud of that. If everyone did it the same way, it would be of no help to the producers. I had made my decision for my audition and I should have no regrets. They have something they are looking for and if I'm not it, I'm just not it. It doesn't mean I wasn't pretty enough. It doesn't mean I wasn't good enough. It just means I wasn't what they needed at that moment. And that's okay.

They asked six girls to stay and the rest could go. I wasn't one of the six. But I wasn't upset at all. I was just elated that I had even been chosen to read in the first place. Not many people get that chance. I was a little disappointed but I was much happier than I was upset. I had time to look at the girls they had asked to stay and who they had asked to go. There were a couple of girls leaving with me, that I thought were gorgeous, yet we were all walking back to holding. There were girls that I thought I was prettier than, but they were staying. There were girls whose auditions I heard, and thought they nailed it, and they were going back with me!

This was an amazing realization. There is no way to know who or what they are looking for. People you think would be perfect they could think suck, or vise versa. I am not going to go into auditions comparing myself to other performers. You can't, you'll go crazy! You can't get inside their heads, so don't try to be what they want. Be what you are and you'll have no regrets. You just have to do your thing

With this new found information I was on Cloud 9. I had auditioned for a producer on a movie I hadn't even been booked for!

When we signed out at the end of the night, I thanked the AD and I told her my name and she said "Ohh! Genellyn, yeah! You were very close in the auditions, it was a hard one". So that lifted my spirits even more! It was just a really great day. And I thank the Lord for how it was orchestrated.

SO many things had to happen to get me to that auditioning point. I almost gave up a couple of times, but my help came from Him! The courage it took me to call for the parking pass, my pushing to make sure they weren't taking specs.... And even though I didn't get the line, it was still a fabulous experience, and I walked away having learned something extremely valuable that I will take with me for the rest of my acting career. I had never had an impromptu audition like that, and I'm grateful to have it under my belt.

Oh and it turned out, they picked a blond girl for the part anyway!

So, I went from having nothing to do for the day, to almost not making it on a movie set, to being seen by Vince Vaughn, and auditioning for a producer. Amazing.

**Update: Since the movie's out now, I think it's okay to share that it was Couple's Retreat I was working on!**