Can't Sleep!

Welp, it's 2:29 AM and I have to be at work at 5:00....I'm so boned!

I was lying in my bed with all of these things running around in my head, one of them having to do with my previous post, and a bunch of other things I have going on: trying to find a roommate, and this important opportunity that I have to interview for tomorrow. With all of these things going on, I was lying in bed with my eyes wide open.

I have to be getting ready to go in an hour and a half. I'm going to be sooo tired at work. I don't know how I'm going to survive tomorrow.

There are a couple of things going on in my life that I would like to share about, however none of them are for sures yet, and I have thins fear of jinxing myself if I talk about them too much. As a Christian I probably shouldn't be so superstitious, but I can't help it! :-P I feel like any time I have the possibility of a good thing and I tell anyone about it, it ends up not panning out (i.e. The guy that was almost my boyfriend. I had told anyone about him, and one day I was feeling happy about it, so I told my aunt, who was visiting, about him. He text me that night to say he was going back to his Ex).

As soon as things are settled and dust clears, and I have definite answers, you'll be the first (possibly second or third, depending:-)) to know!

My fam, my friend, and I saw District 9 tonight. We've been trying to see that movie all weekend! It was really good, and I'm glad I'm in the loop now. They were talking about it at work on Monday and I had to turn up my headphones cuz I didn't want to hear any spoilers. I hate spoilers. One of my biggest pet peeves is knowing the end of a movie I haven't seen, or when people just blurt out things that are going to happen. if you don't want to be my friend anymore, just tell me the ending of a movie we're watching. Done.

Well I'm going to attempt to close my eyes now. Thanks for stopping by!

Livin' For The Weekend

This weekend turned out to be very interesting! A great turn around from Thursday indeed.

FUNKY FRIDAY

Friday morning I went to the gym and did my workout, just in time to meet my friend Dawn at the theater. We were going to see 17 Again. Turned out the movie time was different from what she had found, and I had to be at work at 3:00. We found it playing at another theater not too far at 12:30, so we headed over.

We got good seats in the middle, just where I like them! Let me tell you, Pacific in downtown Culver City is my FAVORITE theater. The seats are comfortable and the stadium seating is perfect, you don't have to worry about people's big heads or hairdos getting in your way! Anyway there was Dawn and I, two grown men (who weren't together, they were sitting far from one another, which was interesting), and a couple I think.

I'm so glad there weren't a lot of people, because Dawn and I were drooling over Zac Efron the entire time! I thought he was hot in Hairspray, but didn't think much of him, but now, I've become one of those tween girls screaming about him! I'm really much too old for this, but he's so GORGEOUS, it's ridiculous. Since Hayden Christensen went and got married, I think I've found his replacement....Don't even get me started on why he's so attractive. And what makes him hot in this movie is that he's playing a grown man. So he's not some dumb high school kid. His is a man, and he did an excellent job! His mannerisms and facial expressions were priceless. I really think he could be another great actor of our time if he picks the right roles.


Swingin' Saturday

Had to work at 5:oo am on Saturday, but it wasn't too bad cuz I was working with Dawn again, and we were still on our Zac Efron high. We were positively giddy at the thought of the boy. But it was fun being silly with someone else about a celebrity crush.

I was supposed to hang out with my brother and our friends because our friend Avery has never seen Final Destination and we were going to watch the trilogy. But he had a family emergency, so we ended up not going. I checked my e-mail when I got home and I got an e-mail from a guy I met at Brennan's back in September. We'll call him TR. I hadn't heard from him a in while. He's from out of state, but he was in LA for work, and he asked for my number. My brother and I were trying to figure out what to do for the night, but I was so tired I was falling asleep. Then I got a text from TR asking me to come out. I wanted to but I was super tired, and I did not fee like driving, but my brother was feeling like going out, so I figured if he was driving I would go. We ended up meeting TR and his friends in Venice. It was cool. We got there kind of late so we weren't there for long. It was cool though. I always like hanging out with my brother.

When I saw TR, I gave him a hug and he said "You look great!", this was cool because guys always say that in movies when they see the girl after a while, and I always thought: Guys never say that in real life! So I was really flattered. It doesn't take much for me, lol. I'll have to recap my love life /dating experiences one of these days so you'll understand my awkwardness when it comes to the opposite sex.

Slowdown Sunday

Had to work again on Sunday. It wasn't a long shift, and my mom and brothers picked me up to go to the Festival of Books at UCLA. It was crowded!! We go every year, and it's getting crazier!! My mom and I found some good info.

We were walking around when I saw a guy that looked familiar. He looked like a guy I dated last year. We will call him AC. So I text him and asked him if he was at the Festival, and he said yes. We ended up finding each other. I haven't seen him in about a year, and we just stopped talking to each other. There was no break-up or anything wrong, we just lost communication. Gave him a hug and he said "You look great!", haha!! This was awesome. I was so glad I decided to wash my hair on Friday, and look semi cute even though we were just going to the festival. So random, I see two guys I haven't seen in a while, and they both tell me I look great which I thought was a movie myth, and urban legend.

After the festival, my mom and brothers and I decided to go see Race To Witch Mountain. It sucked. The writing was terrible, it was cliche and just a BAD movie. I am not picky about my movies, so if I say it's bad, it's BAD.

We ended up seeing another homeschool mom we knew when I was in high school. She was bragging to my mom about being a grandmother, and my mom was saying she was jealous. I hate these conversations because then I'm looked at like "Why don't you have any kids yet?!", I'm like mom, would you like me to just run out and get pregnant? Cuz I can probably do that. I was just hoping to actually be in love and have a husband before I have children. If you would like to go out in LA and find me a decent guy, go for it, and good luck! I always hate seeing people that I knew from high school. I mean I live at home and I'm trying to be an actress. My life is not really noteworthy as of yet. SO then I have to say oh, I'm working on an acting career or oh I'm an online moderator. Neither of which are very impressive. But I'm making those sacrifices for my dream career. But that's for another blog another time!

Manic Monday

Went to work. Tried to do homework at Coffee Bean afterwards, but it was too cold outside, and all the tables inside were taken. I get a text from TR asking me if I can come hang out. I tell him I have to go to the gym then go home and get ready. I invite Dawn, Allison and Chelsea. We all meet in Venice Beach at a bar to watch the Lakers game (GO LAKER S 4- 1, WOOOO!). Then the three of us end up going back to the Ritz-Carlton with TR and his friend. It was good times after that, but I won't go into detail.


Also, this weekend I had checked my Facebook and I got a wall comment from The Guy, another long story, let's just say he's kind of 'The One That Got Away, only it would be The One That Let Me Go. The one whom I've had feelings for, that I can't get rid of, for the last three years. He never initiates any conversation with me, it's always me talking to him. But he actually wrote to me first.

So it was a very interesting weekend as far as my "Love" Life goes. Lol, I didn't meet anyone knew, but I had interactions with a few guys from the past. It was really weird that it all happened in the same weekend.

How was your weekend?

This Is How We Do It

I scheduled myself to have Mon-Wed of this week off from my Moderator job so that I could work background those days. Well I ended up not working on Monday or Tuesday. I had tried to book work for Tuesday, but they said they couldn't use me. So I was destined to laze about at home for the third day in a row. This was not going to work for me. My friend Dan had gotten called and booked on the movie that I got denied for. Since I was doing nothing all day anyway, I decided to try to spec (in BG terms, that means go on set and see if people don't show up and you can take their place). I thought the call time was going to be around 3:00PM so I text Dan at 11:45AM for the details. I called the info line and they said the call time was 1:00PM! I rushed and threw my clothes in a bag (you have to bring your own clothes when you're an extra) and hauled but over to the studio.

When I got there, they said they couldn't let me in because my name wasn't on list. Of course my name wasn't on the list, I wasn't booked. So they told me to call the pass office and see if they could help me. The Pass Office told me to call Central because they need them to send the O.K. So I called Central and they said they don't make passes for Specs. It looked like I was going to have to go home with my tail between my legs.

I had considered calling the casting director at Central and asking for her help, but I didn't want to be an annoying BG person. I mean she had already told me they couldn't use me, and now I had the nerve to just go to set? This could definitely put me on her Bad List.

I was just about to resign to getting in my car and going home, when the guard (an elder gentleman), told me to call and see if maybe they spelled my name wrong. I didn't feel like explaining the whole situation and how they couldn't have spelled it wrong, because it wasn't on the list in the first place. I gave him some short answer and he said "Well don't give up." That really got to me for some reason. I looked at my phone and decided to call the CD at Central. It rang and she picked up almost immediately. I told her what was going on and asked if she had any more spots on the movie. She asked if I was already there and had the appropriate wardrobe, I told her yes. She put me hold. When she came back, she said she could officially book me, but she would give me a pass so that I could at least go see. I thanked her profusely and went to get my pass.

Okay, parking problem: Solved. Now to get actual work. I made it to the stage and went up to the sign-in table. I asked if they were taking Specs. Right away she shook her head and said they weren't. I asked "none at all?", she said she would check, so she asked the AD at the next table over. And she said "Sure, let them hang out and see. If we don't get our numbers we can let them on" (I'm pretty sure I was the only Spec). They told me to get food and relax til they figure out who's signed in.

People kept coming in, and the voucher pile was dwindling along with my hopes of making it on this film. I hung out with Dan, we got burgers, but I couldn't eat because I was too riled up and nervous about whether I was working or not. Eventually they had taken most everybody to set. I gently reminded them that I was still waiting. They said "It's 2:45, sure let them on!", again I was the only spec, but I was just happy they were going to let me work.

The set was awesome, it was a resort scene so everyone was in swimsuits, there's a pool, wet bar and everything. Plus it was warm, which was a plus since girls had to be in two-pieces.

They told us it was going to be a long day, which was fine with me. After we had been working for a long time, we were waiting in holding to go back on set. The ADs stood up and told all the girls to stand in a circle. So we all got up and went over. They told the blonds they could go ahead and sit down.

The ADs walked around the circle picking girls out. Wen they got to me, I smiled, and she told me to step forward. Wen they finished picking, they told everyone else they could back to their seats. Then they told us they were taking us to the Producer to look at us for a possible upgrade. They were looking for a Polynesian, island, exotic type (and they picked me! Go figure, maybe it was the flowers my hair guy put in, thanks Matt!). So they march us all over to set. Then the producer comes out and looks at us. She tells a few girls to step out because they'd already been seen too much. I am completely nervous at this point. I could feel all kinds of butterflies in my stomach.

When she finishes that process, Vince Vaughn comes over to look at us! I ADORE Vince Vaughn so this just sent my pulse skyrocketing. He was really nice, and explained the scene to us. Then they told us we were going to be auditioning for the producer for a line in the movie!! I was so excited. This was the first time anything liek this had ever happened to me. They gave us the script to look over and I practiced and practiced. I could hear other girls practicing too, but I did my best not to pay attention and focus on what I was doing. I prayed: "Lord you got me here, if it's meant to be it will happen. If not, I know you have something else for me. Just help me to do my best."

My turn finally came and I read the dialogue. When I finished I could hear the other girls saying their lines for the producers. I kept thinking "She sounded cuter" or "I should have done it like that".

That's when I had an epiphany. No, I should not have done like the other girls. I did it my way (As Frankie S. would put it) and I should be proud of that. If everyone did it the same way, it would be of no help to the producers. I had made my decision for my audition and I should have no regrets. They have something they are looking for and if I'm not it, I'm just not it. It doesn't mean I wasn't pretty enough. It doesn't mean I wasn't good enough. It just means I wasn't what they needed at that moment. And that's okay.

They asked six girls to stay and the rest could go. I wasn't one of the six. But I wasn't upset at all. I was just elated that I had even been chosen to read in the first place. Not many people get that chance. I was a little disappointed but I was much happier than I was upset. I had time to look at the girls they had asked to stay and who they had asked to go. There were a couple of girls leaving with me, that I thought were gorgeous, yet we were all walking back to holding. There were girls that I thought I was prettier than, but they were staying. There were girls whose auditions I heard, and thought they nailed it, and they were going back with me!

This was an amazing realization. There is no way to know who or what they are looking for. People you think would be perfect they could think suck, or vise versa. I am not going to go into auditions comparing myself to other performers. You can't, you'll go crazy! You can't get inside their heads, so don't try to be what they want. Be what you are and you'll have no regrets. You just have to do your thing

With this new found information I was on Cloud 9. I had auditioned for a producer on a movie I hadn't even been booked for!

When we signed out at the end of the night, I thanked the AD and I told her my name and she said "Ohh! Genellyn, yeah! You were very close in the auditions, it was a hard one". So that lifted my spirits even more! It was just a really great day. And I thank the Lord for how it was orchestrated.

SO many things had to happen to get me to that auditioning point. I almost gave up a couple of times, but my help came from Him! The courage it took me to call for the parking pass, my pushing to make sure they weren't taking specs.... And even though I didn't get the line, it was still a fabulous experience, and I walked away having learned something extremely valuable that I will take with me for the rest of my acting career. I had never had an impromptu audition like that, and I'm grateful to have it under my belt.

Oh and it turned out, they picked a blond girl for the part anyway!

So, I went from having nothing to do for the day, to almost not making it on a movie set, to being seen by Vince Vaughn, and auditioning for a producer. Amazing.

**Update: Since the movie's out now, I think it's okay to share that it was Couple's Retreat I was working on!**